ok, this is ridiculous

and really quite sad.

I stepped on the scale today, and I was within 5 lbs of where I was at the end of April. Not cool.

I have no one but myself to blame - it's a lack of self-control, especially through the holidays (as I know at least 10 of those lbs were put back on this past month alone).

So, as of tomorrow, back at WW, maybe even dust off the WII. Gotta get back at 'er... enough's enough.

A bag of dog food

That's the only comparison I could find as to what 50 lbs feels like.

Why do I want a comparison as to what 50 lbs feels like?? Because that's how much I've lost since April '08!! YAY!!

Hey bandwagon, come back!

So, I ended up taking October pretty much off. Life, holidays, and other health elements got in the way. BUT. I actually opened the WW tracker on my computer when I got to work today, and I"m ready to get back on plan and lose those last stubborn pounds that stand between me & my goal weight. Ok, plus a few more. I admittedly ate like absolute crap these last few weeks, and it shows. I'm still around -16 or -17, but it could be a lot better. So, back I am on the road to -30/10%. Here's hoping I don't get booted off the wagon again...

Bootcamp v.2.0 results

Well, the results aren't as fantastic as bootcamp 1.0, but I'll take it. Barely anything lost in inches, but lost 2.5% bodyfat! Whoo!

Gah.

I am scared to weigh myself. I have been eating so much crap lately, it's scary. i should stop, as it's making me feel like hell, but it's what I do when I'm 'in a mood'. Why am I in such a mood lately? Because I'm sick and tired of the hurry up and wait game that I've been playing with respect to some other shite, and so my focus has waned drastically. I was all gung ho back in April/May because we didn't think there'd be such a wait, but as we come up on 6 months waiting for a green light, I get frustrated, so I eat.

Wooohooooo!

I went shopping yesterday with my gift card from Chelle. :oD I bought myself a new pair of jeans (in a 33) and a sweater in a Large!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gleeeeeee!

New decade!

I was down another 1.8ish today, for a total of -23.8!! The best part about today was seeing the 'new decade' I entered... It's still a high number, but it's the lowest I've seen the scale in recent memory. 6.2 lbs to go for first goal, 9.8 for 2nd... well, really -10, as I want to see the scale BELOW that 2nd goal... and I will, dammit :D

wheee!

I'm back over the 20 lb hurdle! And determined to stay there! -21.6 as of this morning, tyvm. Not the -30 I hoped to be at today (4 months since I started this 'mission'), but close.

I'm still tracking, just not doing a stellar job of it. I should use the WW tools, seeing as I'm paying for them, i know. But hey, I paid for the gym for almost a year before finally cancelling, so *shrug* Regardless, I am losing still, and all's well.

A new bump in the road

I somehow ended up losing 1.2lbs last week? Weird.

I got a weird skin thing removed on Friday (the doc isn't concerned about it, but will have the pathologist look at it anyway). I now have 3 stitches on my leg. It bled some when I was walking around Costco yesterday, so I'm trying to take it easy. I'm worried though that I'm not going to be able to exercise all week! Stitches don't come out until the 17th. Boo!

Also, we're leaving for the cabin on the 15th. . . I don't plan on counting while there, but will try to be remotely responsible. May need an ass-kicking to get back in the swing of things when we're back (23rd).

Update

So, here's my update for today: Still haven't drowned my sorrows in junk food (I have a box of Toffifee upstairs, and haven't opened it!). Forced myself to go for a 30 minute bike ride, with some ab exercises. However, I haven't journalled at all this week. I'm not too sure if I should be pleased by myself or not.

Le sigh.

I had a shitty, shitty day. I've been fighting myself ever since to not just drown my sorrows in a bunch of really bad-for-me food. I don't know what to do to make myself feel better. I used to, on a bad day, treat myself with some junk food for comfort (or let's be honest, on a good day I'd celebrate the same way). I don't know what to do instead. I should've worked out tonight, but had a meeting and it didn't happen.

Add to that that I'm PMSing, and ate like shit all weekend and feel fat and bloated and like crying. . . .

Random thoughts

I bought a skipping rope today from the dollar store. It broke after 15 minutes, and boy was I glad! Man, that was hard work, and my shins/calves are killing me. Also, my bladder is not the same as it was before having a kid. Eek.

I ran into one of my old clients in the post office today. He asked how the kid was doing, and I said she's running everywhere. He commented on how I've lost weight, so she must be keeping me running. It's such a Catch-22. I want people to notice that I have, but I hate when they say anything to me. I don't mind if my friends, who have been following my journey, comment on it, but to just have someone on the street comment on it? Ick.

Also, I will be seeing my mother in 2 weeks. She is sure to comment. I don't want her to. She's always commented on my weight (good or bad). I'm sure she'll tell me she's "proud of me". The problem with this is that I've always felt like she's most "proud" when I'm skinny enough for her liking. There's a lot of baggage here that I don't totally feel like going into at the moment.

Plateau be gone!

I crossed the -20 mark today... -22 to be exact :D

I wasn't feeling well Sunday/yesterday, so while not eating a lot those days (except at a weddign shower on Sunday - ugh), I didn't completely not eat, so 'sall good. Feeling better today - back on all my meds, drinking more water, 'sall good.

Now, if I can just get my fat arse off the couch, i'd be golden.

It's 11:12 Friday night...

and I'm out of flex points for the week. I still have three days to go. Wish me luck!

So close...

I missed the -20 mark by a measley .6 lbs this morning. Which does of course mean that I have busted outta the plateau I was in, and am losing again. 10.6 lbs to go to my first goal, and 13.8 to go to the second. (Yes, I have two goals that are 3 lbs apart. You have problems with that?? :P ) Totally doable in a few weeks, I might even surpass the goals.

I have found that as much as I'm journalling everything, I still tend to go over my flex points for the week, but really. I still tend to eat an average of 2000 cal/day, which I'm guessing is considerably less than I was eating. Therefore, even without exercising, I will still lose. The ww is just great for tracking for me. The tools are easy to use, and I have them open 24/7 while at work or home. And yes, I realize that by exercising I'd gain points to eat, and would no longer be going over the flex point allotment, but meh. I have my moments. and seriously, I will get off my arse. Eventually.

Anyway. that was quite the ramble, my bad. Have a good week, all!

Oh my darling, you look ONEderful tonight

I made it! 198.2 was the beautiful number on my scale this morning (-5 since last week - damn water weight last week)!

Stalled...

like our old Crapalier, I'm stalled. I've basically been stalled (within .6 lbs) for the last 2 weeks. I've been overeating, and just kinda blah. I know I have to start exercising and staying on track, but I find it really hard to do lately. I'd love to hit that 20lb mark, or 30 or 40... don't know what's stopping me. I have had comments that people can see the change now, hopefully this will kick start me into losing again. blah.......

oink oink moo...

Self-sabotage

This week, I should've been able to get to under 200lbs. Last week, I was at 201, and "one-derland" was in sight. So what do I do? Eat a bunch of brownies and pistachios and other things that are really bad for me, and go back up to 203.2.

I'm so fucking mad at myself right now. I've been slacking off since bootcamp ended - still working out, but not as often or as hard or as I was. Why is it that when someone else puts expectations/goals on me, I can't let them down, but I have no problem letting myself down?

i got a STAR!

wheeeeeeeee! I am officially 5(.3)% lighter than I was at the end of April. 53% towards my 33 lb goal, or 59% towards 30 (10% starting weight).


I didn't have the greatest week food-wise (I uh, ate an extra week's worth of flex points. oops??) and still lost, so I feel like I cheated, uh, quite a bit. I'm going to definitely curb the flex point consumption this week... or, at least try.

how's everyone else making out??

OH - and for inspiration, check out a friend of a friend's blog - Uncovering Me. It's absolutely amazing... especially this post.. wowza. Oh to be able to do that (kick ass before & after shots) one day...

Oink.

today i had the food day from hell. all self-induced, but still. actually, it's been a really bad food weeek, and i still have 3 days to go :/ I have logged everything, and it's not pretty.

i'm finding i have issues with 'social occassions'. This week I've had a pizza lunch at work, a bbq for j's work today (free food & booze...), went to a movie with a friend, and i make choices that I think are 'ok', and they so turn out not to be.

Ah well. not worth dwelling, right? just gotta be more diligent this weekend...

New Suit

I bought 2 new suits on May 1, in a size 18. Today, I bought a new suit in a size 14!!! :oD I'm so damn happy about it!

That is all. :oD

Week 7 results...

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Thanks to WW & of course a little help & support from my friends, I have lost 14.4 lbs since April 28!!! I'm going for a 30 lb (first) goal, so I'm 48% of the way there. Looks like I just might be able to make it to 30 lbs lost by the end of August. or sooner????

I am starting to feel a little different - the roll bw my boobs & belly is smaller and less bloaty, and I almost feel like I've lost a bit off my hips. Course, maybe that's just a bit off my gut, making my pants fit better, but whatever. And maybe the loss is partially attributed to feeling like HELL this past week, but hey, whatever works :P

The constant counting isn't as annoying as I thought (I heart the online counter that I have bookmarked at home & work), and although it's a struggle every day, it's working.

So to anyone out there who's struggling, keep it up. If I can lose this weight, anyone can :D

well that's one way of looking at things...

As of yesterday morning, I was -12 so far. Of a 30 lb first goal, that's 40% of the way there! wooo! 15 lbs will be 5% total body weight lost, and 1/2 way.. I'm such a numbers gal that 40% complete sounds so much better than 18 lbs to go.

Bootcamp final results

After 106km of biking, 17km of running, and 122 rounds up and down the grandstands, the results are in!

Waist: -2.5 inches
Hips: -2.5 inches
Thighs: -2.0 inches each leg
Chest: -1.25 inches
Arms: -1.0 inch each arm

Total inches lost: 12.25
Body fat percentage lost: 1%

I'm sad it's over! I'm worried that I won't push myself as hard without it.

6 weeks in...

And I"m still at -10.2 lbs, but seriously, the last two weeks have had their share of pitfalls, so I'm just glad I haven't really gained anything. I do feel better now that I'm back on track with WW.

I talked to my dr. last week, and a dr at the clinic, and both are happy with the losses to date. I also had an u/s on the 'thing' on my foot today, so hopefully I'll get some answers about that soon. As in - what the hell is it, and how will they remove it? :P

so that's about it. just a short update here, but hope to be able to report bigger losses soon!

1 month into the "new" me....

I am officially down 12.5 pounds in 1 month! I am pretty happy, but I am still battling the "I am doing so well and trying so hard, I want the INSTANT result" 10 more pounds to go until July 18th . I have this date in mind as I have a family wedding that night, and a friend's wedding the week after.

I am not sure it is doable, and I would still be happy with another 5 lbs.

My ultimate goal is 20 pounds loss from now, then over the next several years work on reducing my body fat % and perhaps lose abother 5 lbs after that.

It's my adult life weight goal I am after.

When I think about the reasons I want to lose weight, the obvious ones DON'T come to mind. I want to lose weight to be able to wear the cute clothes and not worry that I am bulging out. I want to buy clothes because I like them, not because they just fit me or hide my flaws. I want to be the hot wife, the yummy mummy. I should get my priorities staight, but meh...this is working for now.

My challenge over the next week will be a work trip to Montreal where much restaurant and conference eating will be my nemesis. My goal is to not gain back more the 2 pounds. I will report back with the results....

week 4 checkin..

Today marks 4 weeks since I started really trying to lose some of this excess weight. And... a total of -10.2 lbs!!! 11 lbs marks 1/3 of the goal, so I'm pretty stoked to see the double digits.

This week will definitely be a challenge, as I'm on the road until Friday night. I left at lunch, and will get home sometime after dinner on Friday. Learned something interesting though... licorice isn't worth it. 10 pcs = 14 pts. That's more than a double cheeseburger!!! I had bought a bag on the trip up, and will be turfing it shortly, when I go out to find something for dinner, as it's not worth having in the room (bc I know I'll just eat it). Ah well. I've been paying for it not just point-wise - my stomach is killing me. UGH UGH UGH. Ah well. live and learn, right?

Good luck to everyone else this week!

Bootcamp - midpoint

Well, this week marked the halfway point for bootcamp (with a 4.5km run and a 11km bike ride)! 2 things that I'm very happy about:

- our instructor said we could do midpoint measurements, so I did. I'm down a total of 5.25 inches - 2 off the waist, .75 off hips, 2 off bust, and .5 off arms. Legs remain the same size, but I know that the composition is starting to be more muscle > fat! I'm definitely noticing the changes.

- one of my classmates told me yesterday that I inspired her on Tuesday during our run. I ran right to the end of one part, instead of taking a shortcut like the woman in front of me, and then passed her later on. The woman told me that seeing me do that really inspired her to push herself. I felt awesome!

week 3 and my first self-challenge...

So far WW is going all right. I used my first .5 of flex last night, and that was more so i could use up my daily points than anything. On my first 'weigh in' yesterday, I was down a whole 9.4 lbs from Apr 28 (the date I kicked my arse back into gear). Wheeeeeee!

The challenge though will be going out for lunch tomorrow to the neighborhood pub with friends from work, for a coworkers going away party. i know, i know - Diet pepsi v. beer, salad v. fries, etc. here's hoping I can stick to it...

Plateau already?

After a weird 1.5 pound gain ( got my monthly driend a week early???) I am now down 9.5 pounds. I guess the initial fast drop is over. Time to start working on figuring out how to keep losing. 2 lbs a week is my goal right now. If this rain would just let up, I could get out more.

i took the plunge...

I joined WW online today. i feel a bit disappointed in myself, which I realize is absolutely ca-razy, but I do. I"m sure I'll get over it. Off to go peruse the cupboards to see what I can make for dinner that won't cost me the rest of my daily points...

wow.

a day of craptastic eating can really negate any losses. just sayin...

and for the record, J (says he) supports my quest to lose poundage, but still buys the junky food. Usually it's eaten out of my sight, which I'm ok with, but it still makes its way into the house. I hate cooking two separate dinners too, so it makes it that much harder when he's happy with all carbs for dinner and i have something separate. boo-urns. but i've known this all for years, so i know, i know... just suck it up princess. Bah.

As for exercise, i need to dust off the wii fit, yes. I would also like to start going for walks, but not being able to put on a pair of proper runners because of Bob (uh, the ganglion on my foot) makes it tough. ANYWAY. enough whining. Time to go round up something not-so-craptastic for lunch.

week 2 rambles...

first thing's first. as of yesterday morning, I was down 7.2 lbs in the 15 days since Apr 28.

However, it was like my usual PMS food cravings showed up about 5 days late... I have eaten pretty close to only crap for the last 24 hours. half a bag of Doritos last night (J left 'em in plain sight...), chinese food at lunch, stupid mcd's for dinner. And i've noticed my foot is swelling up again, most likely because I haven't been as diligent with the caffeine cut-backs as I had been hoping to be. BAH. plus, this weekend we're going to J's parents place, so it will be hard to be 'good' where I'm not making my own meals. Food choices, yes, but still... ah well, we'll see how it goes.

I met with my ND/acupuncturist/dietitian on Monday... she reviewed my food diary, and determined I was still eating too many high glycemic foods. And ya, I know I do, but she also highlighted things like the 1 Dorito I ate one day. First off, it was ONE effing Dorito. Not one bag, one handful, but ONE. CHIP. and I journalled it! bah. She also mentioned that i drink waaaaay too much juice. Umm, I was really sick last week. the only time I drink juice? is when I'm sick. so I took that with a grain of salt... just ticked me off. ah well. I find that journalling totally helped... if i have to write it down, i'm not as likely to eat the crap.

Ah well. I'll see how I do for the rest of the month, and may just start ww online after that.

I might as well chime in too

Since the other girls are sharing in their success, I might as well too. I am down 9 pounds in 3 weeks. How am I doing it? Wii fit, Curves, pedometer attached to me and I am just not eating when I am not hungry. Simple as that. It's amazing to think that it's pretty much 90% diet. Stop eating crap and over snacking- pounds melt away!

So I am now 23 pounds heavier then the smallest I was in May 2006 and 12 pounds away to where I was just 9 months ago.
I am focused, feeling much better and i know I can do this!

running tally - week 1 & change

Weight loss for week 1 - approx 3.5 lbs.

Added to the loss for the par week between the 28th and last Monday of 1.5 lbs is a grand total of .. 5 lbs in just shy of 2 weeks! And that's with not being a COMPLETE food angel. I'm slowly starting to change me ways though... just gotta stop making cakes, and i'll be golden. mmm.. golden cake...

Never thought I'd hear these words come out of my mouth

"Does this mean I can't work out?" --> asked to the doctor, really hoping that he'd say that I'd still be OK to work out after my ditch-hitting incident on Wednesday.

And I'm loving bootcamp. Totally loving it. Class 2 was an 8km bike ride, Class 3 was a 1.5km run, and Class 4 was a 15km bike ride. Class 5 brings another round of grandstand running, and I'm hoping to do better this time than last time. But in the end, it matters that I do it, not whether I'm first, last, or whatever. Here are some personal triumphs (besides actually getting off my ass to go to class) that I've seen so far:

- Class 2 I went to the early class because I had to leave for the city at the normal start time. Finished in the middle of the pack
- Class 3 I challenged myself to run the whole way, even though she told us we could do a walk/run combo. I finished right near the end, but I still ran the whole thing.
- Class 4 she told me I could take a shortcut if I thought I couldn't make the loop twice. I was fully prepared to quit after the first loop, but I perservered and finished the entirety of both loops. I kept telling myself "You're not the fat kid who needs special considerations made for her. If they can do it, you can do it." And I did.

What is kinda weird is that all along, I give myself permission to quit, but once I do, the rest of me chimes in with "but you won't because you're not a quitter".

On non-bootcamp days, I'm doing extended elliptical workouts paired with the Wii Fit. It's going so good! I'm actually enjoying working out. Whoa.

Five days down..

so, lots of little ups and downs, but so far i think so good. As of this morning (i'm back to daily weigh-ins - NOT good), i was down a total of 4.4ish from last Tuesday, so that's good. slow & steady, eh? I have been sick though, so hopefully that's not why I've been losing. I have still been eating though, so who knows?

My acu/ND/dietician suggested WW online to help track food, etc and I don't know. For $20/month, it's not as costly as WW IRL, and no meetings, but i dunno. i really didn't want to get back to counting points, etc. I just want to see how things go with just making better choices, etc. Thoughts on WW online?

Day 1 - done.

well, i survived day 1. it was a bit hard when J. was sitting at his computer desk a few feet from me and eating some chips, but I did it.I did buy a smallish bag of Nibs when I was at the drug store, but other than that I limited food choices and such. I was down about 1.5 lbs yesterday morning from last Tuesday's weigh in, so I'll definitely take that :)

Unfortunately I'm feeling like a big bag o' crap today, so i'm just trying to stay hydrated. Any weight lost will probably just be because I don't feel like eating - not because I'm eating 'properly'. We'll see what happens though.

here we go.

Tomorrow is the day that I really start trying to lose some of this extra baggage. I've been trying to make 'better' decisions this week, but it's hard getting back in the mindset. I hope that even just making better little choices will help offset things. I'll be battling this guy (the WW 'hungry' monster, who I'm renaming 'Snacky') but between almonds, some trail mix, grapes, etc I hope to be able to keep that monster at bay.

I also want to thank my friends who are all 1000% behind me, and are helping to support me however they can - from all across the country. I sooo appreciate all the support, and really hope I don't let anyone down. MWAH!

And I didn't even puke

Tonight was the first of 14 bootcamp classes that I signed up for. It was possibly the hardest physical thing I've ever done. We ran (or for me, walked) the bleachers. First, 5 "doubles" (up the big steps, down the small), then 5 "singles" (up and down the small steps). Then tricep dips. Then lunges, squats and pushups. Then 5 more doubles, and 5 more singles. Everyone else did more tricep dips, but I was still dragging my fat ass through the singles. Then more lunges, squats and pushups (but I was feeling dizzy, so I pretty much just sat that part out). But I pretty much made it. My legs were shaking so badly!

I also cried while I was doing the last doubles. I don't know why. Maybe it's because all this fat is really just gelatinous emotion, and as I burn it off, it needs to come out somehow?

Speaking of gelatin, I had heard that drinking warm Jell-O helps prevent stiffness, so I've downed a cup of that tonight, hoping to be able to walk tomorrow. . .

and we're back.

like for real. no excuses. J & I went for our follow up with the fertility clinic (finally!) and we were kinda given the green light for IVF, but they're concerned about my weight. "Even a 10% loss could significantly increase your odds..."

it's not like this is rocket science. i've known FOREVER that i should lose weight to make it easier for IVF/pregnancy in general. But instead? I've gained... I"m at my highest weight ever right now.

so? I've got some wonderful friends who are going to help support me through the next few months. The plan is to try and lose 10% (approx 30 lbs) by the end of summer. And how I plan to do this...

• cut out refined carbs (no white breads, carbs). One big part of this? NO MORE TREATS at coffee/lunch
  
• cut back on caffeine intake/up water intake
• i'm looking into taking aquasize/jog classes at the local pool (can't walk as my foot is effed, and i can't wear runners)
  
• keeping track of things on here
• one of my friends has challenged me (and me her) that for every 5 lbs lost, a small gift will be sent

This week is really busy with 2 going away parties and my hubby's bday, but small steps. Better choices and small steps, and hard core starts Monday.

It's official, I have no willpower

GAH. I can talk the talk, but I cannot walk the walk. I am really unhappy with how I look. Like really really really unhappy. Why can't I just shut my mouth? I need to lose weight. I need to do it now. I finally feel good, I am not sick, I am at home for the next forseeable future( rather then on the road) and it's starting to warm up a bit.

My goal for this week: cut out the bread. walk at least 10 000 steps a day. I have my pedometer, it's my obsession. I haven't been able to log more then 8000 odd steps a day.

I gotta go, off to go for walk.

I went for a walk!

Ok, this doesn't seem like it should be post-worthy, but most of the time I hate going for walks. I don't mind walking if I've got a place to go, but just going for a walk, shoot me. But, it was a nice day (-4C, -11 windchill), so I set out this afternoon for the fabric store at the end of our street, to pick some stuff up for a friend. I got almost to the main road (about 1km from the house) and realized that the store. wasn't. open! DOH! But, due to the fresh snow that was on the ground from last night, my walk ended up clocking in at almost 30 minutes total, so a step in the right direction, if nothing else!

Update on me...

Hola!

So, 3.5 weeks into the new year, and I thought I'd post a bit of an update. As of this morning, I'm 3ish (3.2 perhaps?) lbs down from where I was at the beginning of the year! Yay! I have broken the McDonald's ban a few times, but we're not going anywhere as often as before. i've had a few baked treats from Timmie's too, but I'm not berating myself over them. One day at a time, right? I have redeveloped my addiction to Smarties though (or maybe it really never went away).

Hope everyone else is having a good month. Things are gearing up to be crazy for the next few months, hopefully I can lose a little bit of weight amid the chaos :)

Good re-start!

I was down 5lbs on Friday! WOOOOOHOOOOO!

Not as sure about this week, as I've got some bloat happening (after 21 months of no bloat. . . . ), but we'll see. Just have to stay away from the chocolate!

I am back!

So the month of December was a bust for me. Pneumonia put a huge monkey wrench in my weight loss plans. Stepping on the scale Monday was a frightful sight. I am happy to report I have lost 2 pounds since Monday! I also had a hard time figuring out this blogging thing -d'oh! and when our favorite Chelle told me what to do, I realized I was logged in under my dad's account from when he visited before Xmas. double d'oh!
I just wanted to let you all know I was still here, still battling the bulge.

My first short term goal is to lose 10 lbs by Feb 7th. I fly to Winterpeg that day for a work conference. 8 lbs more to go! I CAN do it, and gosh darnet, I will. How I will be doing it will follow shortly.

Well hello there.

Me again. It's a new year, and I'm within 10 lbs of where I was this time last year. +10, not -10, but y'know? It really doesn't bother me for some reason. Not that I don't realize I need to lose it, but I'm generally happy as I am. That said, I'm trying to make some changes to get this year off healthier.

• Tim Horton's challenge v2.0. The location beside our office bldg closed down on NYE, and now there's a bit of a longer walk, and it's just out of the way. Since Jan 1, I have only had one cup of TH tea, and none of their baked goods (although that took control). I brought a baggie of tea & splenda to work, and have milk in the fridge, and just make my own cup at work. Cheaper, and better for me AND the environment. Go me!
• Fast Food. So last year :P As much as I heart french fries, they're like little deep-fried sticks of death. Boooooo. We've had fast food once on the weekend, but have made our dinners at home otherwise, and I've even taken my lunch 2/3 times this week (and went to Subway today, so still not deep-fried!).
• Running errands at lunch. This gets me out in the fresh air every day, walking up the hilly streets of downtown Dartmouth, and at least gets me moving a little. I really need to dust off my WiiFit board and get back at it, or figure out the Rabbids game or something.

Unfortunately my health coverage doesn't cover acupuncture, unless it's done by an MD (grr), so I will be curbing the acupuncture for a while. At least until we're closer to IVF....

So anyway, that's my update. Happy New Year, y'all!

Emotional eating

I don't know that this will be a very long post, but I need to get this out.

I am currently sitting in my empty house, while SuperBaby is at daycare (preparing for when I go back to work on Monday), and all I want to do is eat. A friend called, and I said that I was starving, but that I think that perhaps I'm just trying to fill the void left by missing my beautiful baby. :o( She suggested drinking a glass of water instead, so I'm trying that, but I still want to eat.

Is this mic on?

I gained 8lbs during December. Barf. So, as of January 2, I am back on this damn wagon. I had been eating half-assedly healthy and not journalling, and now that half-ass has added onto my already full-ass.

According to my scale, I'm down 2lbs since Friday, but really, that's likely water. Or gas. But hey, I'll use it as motivation to see how much I can get off my ass-and-a-half by Friday. I also return to work on January 12. Double barf. The good thing is that I won't have all day access to food, so hopefully the routine will help for getting back on the wagon.

Perhaps I'll blog here more now too in order to help strap myself to the wagon. How is everyone else doing? Anyone still here?