1 month into the "new" me....

I am officially down 12.5 pounds in 1 month! I am pretty happy, but I am still battling the "I am doing so well and trying so hard, I want the INSTANT result" 10 more pounds to go until July 18th . I have this date in mind as I have a family wedding that night, and a friend's wedding the week after.

I am not sure it is doable, and I would still be happy with another 5 lbs.

My ultimate goal is 20 pounds loss from now, then over the next several years work on reducing my body fat % and perhaps lose abother 5 lbs after that.

It's my adult life weight goal I am after.

When I think about the reasons I want to lose weight, the obvious ones DON'T come to mind. I want to lose weight to be able to wear the cute clothes and not worry that I am bulging out. I want to buy clothes because I like them, not because they just fit me or hide my flaws. I want to be the hot wife, the yummy mummy. I should get my priorities staight, but meh...this is working for now.

My challenge over the next week will be a work trip to Montreal where much restaurant and conference eating will be my nemesis. My goal is to not gain back more the 2 pounds. I will report back with the results....

week 4 checkin..

Today marks 4 weeks since I started really trying to lose some of this excess weight. And... a total of -10.2 lbs!!! 11 lbs marks 1/3 of the goal, so I'm pretty stoked to see the double digits.

This week will definitely be a challenge, as I'm on the road until Friday night. I left at lunch, and will get home sometime after dinner on Friday. Learned something interesting though... licorice isn't worth it. 10 pcs = 14 pts. That's more than a double cheeseburger!!! I had bought a bag on the trip up, and will be turfing it shortly, when I go out to find something for dinner, as it's not worth having in the room (bc I know I'll just eat it). Ah well. I've been paying for it not just point-wise - my stomach is killing me. UGH UGH UGH. Ah well. live and learn, right?

Good luck to everyone else this week!

Bootcamp - midpoint

Well, this week marked the halfway point for bootcamp (with a 4.5km run and a 11km bike ride)! 2 things that I'm very happy about:

- our instructor said we could do midpoint measurements, so I did. I'm down a total of 5.25 inches - 2 off the waist, .75 off hips, 2 off bust, and .5 off arms. Legs remain the same size, but I know that the composition is starting to be more muscle > fat! I'm definitely noticing the changes.

- one of my classmates told me yesterday that I inspired her on Tuesday during our run. I ran right to the end of one part, instead of taking a shortcut like the woman in front of me, and then passed her later on. The woman told me that seeing me do that really inspired her to push herself. I felt awesome!

week 3 and my first self-challenge...

So far WW is going all right. I used my first .5 of flex last night, and that was more so i could use up my daily points than anything. On my first 'weigh in' yesterday, I was down a whole 9.4 lbs from Apr 28 (the date I kicked my arse back into gear). Wheeeeeee!

The challenge though will be going out for lunch tomorrow to the neighborhood pub with friends from work, for a coworkers going away party. i know, i know - Diet pepsi v. beer, salad v. fries, etc. here's hoping I can stick to it...

Plateau already?

After a weird 1.5 pound gain ( got my monthly driend a week early???) I am now down 9.5 pounds. I guess the initial fast drop is over. Time to start working on figuring out how to keep losing. 2 lbs a week is my goal right now. If this rain would just let up, I could get out more.

i took the plunge...

I joined WW online today. i feel a bit disappointed in myself, which I realize is absolutely ca-razy, but I do. I"m sure I'll get over it. Off to go peruse the cupboards to see what I can make for dinner that won't cost me the rest of my daily points...

wow.

a day of craptastic eating can really negate any losses. just sayin...

and for the record, J (says he) supports my quest to lose poundage, but still buys the junky food. Usually it's eaten out of my sight, which I'm ok with, but it still makes its way into the house. I hate cooking two separate dinners too, so it makes it that much harder when he's happy with all carbs for dinner and i have something separate. boo-urns. but i've known this all for years, so i know, i know... just suck it up princess. Bah.

As for exercise, i need to dust off the wii fit, yes. I would also like to start going for walks, but not being able to put on a pair of proper runners because of Bob (uh, the ganglion on my foot) makes it tough. ANYWAY. enough whining. Time to go round up something not-so-craptastic for lunch.

week 2 rambles...

first thing's first. as of yesterday morning, I was down 7.2 lbs in the 15 days since Apr 28.

However, it was like my usual PMS food cravings showed up about 5 days late... I have eaten pretty close to only crap for the last 24 hours. half a bag of Doritos last night (J left 'em in plain sight...), chinese food at lunch, stupid mcd's for dinner. And i've noticed my foot is swelling up again, most likely because I haven't been as diligent with the caffeine cut-backs as I had been hoping to be. BAH. plus, this weekend we're going to J's parents place, so it will be hard to be 'good' where I'm not making my own meals. Food choices, yes, but still... ah well, we'll see how it goes.

I met with my ND/acupuncturist/dietitian on Monday... she reviewed my food diary, and determined I was still eating too many high glycemic foods. And ya, I know I do, but she also highlighted things like the 1 Dorito I ate one day. First off, it was ONE effing Dorito. Not one bag, one handful, but ONE. CHIP. and I journalled it! bah. She also mentioned that i drink waaaaay too much juice. Umm, I was really sick last week. the only time I drink juice? is when I'm sick. so I took that with a grain of salt... just ticked me off. ah well. I find that journalling totally helped... if i have to write it down, i'm not as likely to eat the crap.

Ah well. I'll see how I do for the rest of the month, and may just start ww online after that.

I might as well chime in too

Since the other girls are sharing in their success, I might as well too. I am down 9 pounds in 3 weeks. How am I doing it? Wii fit, Curves, pedometer attached to me and I am just not eating when I am not hungry. Simple as that. It's amazing to think that it's pretty much 90% diet. Stop eating crap and over snacking- pounds melt away!

So I am now 23 pounds heavier then the smallest I was in May 2006 and 12 pounds away to where I was just 9 months ago.
I am focused, feeling much better and i know I can do this!

running tally - week 1 & change

Weight loss for week 1 - approx 3.5 lbs.

Added to the loss for the par week between the 28th and last Monday of 1.5 lbs is a grand total of .. 5 lbs in just shy of 2 weeks! And that's with not being a COMPLETE food angel. I'm slowly starting to change me ways though... just gotta stop making cakes, and i'll be golden. mmm.. golden cake...

Never thought I'd hear these words come out of my mouth

"Does this mean I can't work out?" --> asked to the doctor, really hoping that he'd say that I'd still be OK to work out after my ditch-hitting incident on Wednesday.

And I'm loving bootcamp. Totally loving it. Class 2 was an 8km bike ride, Class 3 was a 1.5km run, and Class 4 was a 15km bike ride. Class 5 brings another round of grandstand running, and I'm hoping to do better this time than last time. But in the end, it matters that I do it, not whether I'm first, last, or whatever. Here are some personal triumphs (besides actually getting off my ass to go to class) that I've seen so far:

- Class 2 I went to the early class because I had to leave for the city at the normal start time. Finished in the middle of the pack
- Class 3 I challenged myself to run the whole way, even though she told us we could do a walk/run combo. I finished right near the end, but I still ran the whole thing.
- Class 4 she told me I could take a shortcut if I thought I couldn't make the loop twice. I was fully prepared to quit after the first loop, but I perservered and finished the entirety of both loops. I kept telling myself "You're not the fat kid who needs special considerations made for her. If they can do it, you can do it." And I did.

What is kinda weird is that all along, I give myself permission to quit, but once I do, the rest of me chimes in with "but you won't because you're not a quitter".

On non-bootcamp days, I'm doing extended elliptical workouts paired with the Wii Fit. It's going so good! I'm actually enjoying working out. Whoa.

Five days down..

so, lots of little ups and downs, but so far i think so good. As of this morning (i'm back to daily weigh-ins - NOT good), i was down a total of 4.4ish from last Tuesday, so that's good. slow & steady, eh? I have been sick though, so hopefully that's not why I've been losing. I have still been eating though, so who knows?

My acu/ND/dietician suggested WW online to help track food, etc and I don't know. For $20/month, it's not as costly as WW IRL, and no meetings, but i dunno. i really didn't want to get back to counting points, etc. I just want to see how things go with just making better choices, etc. Thoughts on WW online?

Day 1 - done.

well, i survived day 1. it was a bit hard when J. was sitting at his computer desk a few feet from me and eating some chips, but I did it.I did buy a smallish bag of Nibs when I was at the drug store, but other than that I limited food choices and such. I was down about 1.5 lbs yesterday morning from last Tuesday's weigh in, so I'll definitely take that :)

Unfortunately I'm feeling like a big bag o' crap today, so i'm just trying to stay hydrated. Any weight lost will probably just be because I don't feel like eating - not because I'm eating 'properly'. We'll see what happens though.

here we go.

Tomorrow is the day that I really start trying to lose some of this extra baggage. I've been trying to make 'better' decisions this week, but it's hard getting back in the mindset. I hope that even just making better little choices will help offset things. I'll be battling this guy (the WW 'hungry' monster, who I'm renaming 'Snacky') but between almonds, some trail mix, grapes, etc I hope to be able to keep that monster at bay.

I also want to thank my friends who are all 1000% behind me, and are helping to support me however they can - from all across the country. I sooo appreciate all the support, and really hope I don't let anyone down. MWAH!