And I didn't even puke

Tonight was the first of 14 bootcamp classes that I signed up for. It was possibly the hardest physical thing I've ever done. We ran (or for me, walked) the bleachers. First, 5 "doubles" (up the big steps, down the small), then 5 "singles" (up and down the small steps). Then tricep dips. Then lunges, squats and pushups. Then 5 more doubles, and 5 more singles. Everyone else did more tricep dips, but I was still dragging my fat ass through the singles. Then more lunges, squats and pushups (but I was feeling dizzy, so I pretty much just sat that part out). But I pretty much made it. My legs were shaking so badly!

I also cried while I was doing the last doubles. I don't know why. Maybe it's because all this fat is really just gelatinous emotion, and as I burn it off, it needs to come out somehow?

Speaking of gelatin, I had heard that drinking warm Jell-O helps prevent stiffness, so I've downed a cup of that tonight, hoping to be able to walk tomorrow. . .

and we're back.

like for real. no excuses. J & I went for our follow up with the fertility clinic (finally!) and we were kinda given the green light for IVF, but they're concerned about my weight. "Even a 10% loss could significantly increase your odds..."

it's not like this is rocket science. i've known FOREVER that i should lose weight to make it easier for IVF/pregnancy in general. But instead? I've gained... I"m at my highest weight ever right now.

so? I've got some wonderful friends who are going to help support me through the next few months. The plan is to try and lose 10% (approx 30 lbs) by the end of summer. And how I plan to do this...

• cut out refined carbs (no white breads, carbs). One big part of this? NO MORE TREATS at coffee/lunch
  
• cut back on caffeine intake/up water intake
• i'm looking into taking aquasize/jog classes at the local pool (can't walk as my foot is effed, and i can't wear runners)
  
• keeping track of things on here
• one of my friends has challenged me (and me her) that for every 5 lbs lost, a small gift will be sent

This week is really busy with 2 going away parties and my hubby's bday, but small steps. Better choices and small steps, and hard core starts Monday.